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Tue, Mar. 16th, 2004, 12:04 pm
LIE MUCH??? fucker.

i cant just look away cuz the hate is burned into my mind. i cant feel anything cuz the hate has left me dead inside. cuz theres a fine fucking line between love and hate that you cross at least once some every god damn day. when you say you fucking love me, you still push me away. you tie me at the wrists so that you cant be saved. cant save you. you never wanted me to. cant save you now. i cant just look away cuz the hate is burned into my mind. i cant feel anything cuz the hate has left me dead inside. cuz theres a fine fucking line between love and hate that i draw that you cross so that you wont be saved. if all you wanted was to die then i wont stop you today. cuz i know youre game i know youll never change. cant save you. you never wanted me to. cant save you now. we tried and failed so many times. i try for you again but i draw the line. you lied too many god damn lies. and id save your life again but you crossed the line and died. you crossed the line.... but youll never fucking cross me. cuz i wont fucking save you. you never wanted me to and i played the role for too long. no i wont save your hopeless life. fuck no. no one can fucking save you... bitch. you never wanted me to and i played the role for too long. no one can save your hopeless life. fuck no.

Current Mood: aggravated

Current Music: Throwdown.

Fri, Feb. 27th, 2004, 08:32 pm
Our hearts beat from the same device.

Ever been in love: Nope
-In a relationship: Nope
-Been cheated on?: Yep
-Cheated on someone: Yep
-Been Engaged: Yep
-Been Married: Nope
-Been Pregnant: Twice
-Done a long distance relationship: Nope
-Did it work: Nope
-Love someone now: Yep
-Someone love you: Yep
-Did it with someone of the same sex: Nope
-Kissed someone of the same sex: Yep
-Kissed two people in the same day: Yep
-Kissed two people at the same time: Nope
-Had sex with two seperate people at two seperate times in the same day: Yep
-Ever had a stalker: Yep
-Ever stalked someone: Yep
-Dated the artist: Yep
-Dated the rock star: Yep
-Broken a heart: Yep
-Had your heart broken: Nope
-Bad Boys or the good ones: Yep
-Band that reminds you of your first love: Nope
-Band that reminds you of your most recent love: Nope



....that was the most boring thing i have ever done. the end questions arent even "Yep" or "Nope" questions... i was just on a roll so i stuck with it. i'm so gay. look even melissa agrees:

tora tora torres: youre gay
tora tora torres: you can go get married in san fran

...i suck. or wait, no i dont, because im gay.

Current Mood: anxious

Current Music: Halfway Home.

Fri, Feb. 27th, 2004, 05:33 pm
do you want a cup of coffee?

DEAR DAD:

I'm tired of being what you want me to be.
Feeling so faithless.
Lost under the surface.
I don't know what you're expecting of me.
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.

I've become so numb.
I can't feel you there.
I've become so tired.
S much more aware.
I've become all this.
All I want to do is be more like me,
And less like you.

Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly.
Afraid to lose control.
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
And every second is more than I can take.

And I know I may end up failing, too.
But I know you were just like me, with someone dissapointed in you.


SINCERELY,
KELLIE.

Current Mood: disappointed

Current Music: Copeland.